I reminisce
on the last Christmas
I spent with my mom
and my dad
I'm still trippin'
Wishin' that I could go back
to know what I'm missin'
It's a mystery
Oh how'd I forget
I'm not a magician
I'm tryna fix this **** that I can't
Memories made me sick
I hope the past the
hardest that it gets
Mama said she
drinkin' to forget
I told my mama
Save your son a sip
Tryna slow my breath and
get a grip
I feel life is harder
than in death
They're in heaven
I'm the one that's left
I did things that
I knew were wrong but
Time just keeps movin' on and
No matter which way I run
I can't go back to the
way it was no
I broke bones and
I shed some blood
Time took a few
friends I love
No matter which way I run
I can't go back to the
way it was no
And I can't go back to the
way it was no
And I can't go back to the
way it was no
Hold this moment
while you can
Tell your people
that you care
Do it all while
you still can
I can't go back to the
way it was no
I said I can't go back to the
way it was na ah wo
I can't go back to the
way it was no