I have nightmares each week
about that Friday in May
One phone call from you and
my entire world has changed
Trust that you betrayed
Confusion that still lingers
Took everything I loved and
crushed it in between
your fingers
And I doubt you ever think
about the damage that you did
But I hold onto every detail
like my life depends on it
My undying love
Now I hold it like a grudge
And I hear your voice every
time that I think I'm not enough
And I try to be tough
But I wanna scream
How could anybody do the
things you did so easily
And I say I don't care
I say that I'm fine
But you know I can't let it go
I've tried I've tried
I've tried for so long
It takes strength to forgive
But I don't feel strong
The arguments that I have
won against you in my head
In the shower in the car
And in the mirror before bed
Yeah I'm so tough when
I'm alone
And I make you feel so guilty
And I fantasize about a time
you're a little *******' sorry
And I try to understand why
you would do this all to me
You must be insecure
You must be so unhappy
And I know in my heart
Hurt people hurt people
And we both drew blood
But man those cuts were
never equal
And I try to be tough
But I wanna scream
How could anybody do the
things you did so easily
And I say I don't care
I say that I'm fine
But you know I can't let it go
I've tried I've tried
I've tried for so long
It takes strength to forgive
But I don't feel strong
Oo oo oo
Do you think I deserved it all
Oo oo oo
Your flowers filled with vitriol
You built me up
to watch me fall
You have everything
And you still want more
I try to be tough
I try to be mean
But even after all this
You're still everything to me
And I know you don't care
I guess that that's fine
But you know I can't let it go
I've tried I've tried
I've tried for so long
It takes strength to forgive but
I'm not quite sure I'm there yet
It takes strength to forgive but