I walked through the
door with you the
air was cold
But something bout
it felt like home somehow
and I
Left my scarf there
at your sister's house
and you've still got it
in your drawer even now
Oh your sweet disposition
and my wide eyed gaze
We're singing in
the car getting
lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling
down like pieces into
place and I can picture
it after all these days
And I know it's long gone
and that magic's not here
no more and I might be
okay but I'm not fine at all
Oh oh oh
Cause there we are again
on that little town street
You almost ran the red
cause you were looking
over at me wind in my
hair I was there I
remember it all too well
Photo album on the
counter your cheeks
were turning red
You used to be a little
kid with glasses in
a twin sized bed
And your mother's telling
stories bout you on
the tee ball team
You taught me bout
your past thinking your
future was me and you
were tossing me the car
keys f**k the patriarchy
Keychain on the ground
we were always
skipping town
And I was thinking on
the drive down any
time now he's gonna say
it's love you never
called it what it was
Til we were dead and
gone and buried check
the pulse and come
back swearing
it's the same
After three months
in the grave
And then you wondered
where it went to as I
reached for you but all I
felt was shame and you
held my lifeless frame
And I know it's long
gone and there was
nothing else I could do
And I forget about
you long enough to
forget why I needed to
Cause there we are again
in the middle of the night
We're dancing round the
kitchen in the
refrigerator light
Down the stairs I was
there I remember
it all too well
And there we are again
when nobody
had to know
You kept me like a
secret but I kept
you like an oath
Sacred prayer and
we'd swear to remember
it all too well yeah
Well maybe we got lost in
translation maybe I asked
for too much but maybe
this thing was a
masterpiece til
you tore it all up
Running scared
I was there
I remember it
all too well
And you call me up
again just to break
me like a promise
So casually cruel in
the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece
of paper lying here
cause I remember
it all all all
They say all's well that
ends well but I'm
in a new hell
every time
You double cross my mind
you said if we had been
closer in age maybe
it would've been fine
And that made me
want to die the idea you
had of me who was she
a never needy
ever lovely jewel
Whose shine
reflects on you
Not weeping in a
party bathroom some
actress asking me
what happened you
That's what
happened you
You who charmed my
dad with self
effacing jokes
Sipping coffee like
you're on a
late night show
But then he watched me
watch the front door
all night willing you to
come and he said
it's supposed to be
fun turning twenty one
Time won't fly
it's like I'm
paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old
self again but I'm still
trying to find it after plaid
shirt days and nights
when you made
me your own
Now you mail back my
things and I
walk home alone
But you keep my old
scarf from that
very first week
Cause it reminds you
of innocence and
it smells like me
you can't get rid of it
Cause you remember
it all too well yeah
Cause there we are
again when I loved you so
Back before you lost
the one real thing
you've ever known
it was rare I was there
I remember it all too well
Wind in my hair you were
there you remember it all
down the stairs you
were there you
remember it all
It was rare I was there
I remember it
all too well
And I was never good
at telling jokes but
the punch line goes
I'll get older but
your lovers stay my age
From when your Brooklyn
broke my skin and bones
I'm a soldier who's
returning half her weight
And did the twin flame
bruise paint you blue
Just between us did
the love affair maim
you too cause in this
city's barren cold
I still remember the
first fall of snow
and how it glistened
as it fell
I remember it
all too well
Just between us did
the love affair maim
you all too well
Just between us do
you remember
it all too well
Just between us
I remember it
all too well
Down the stairs
I was there
I was there
Sacred prayer
I was there
I was there
It was rare you
remember it
Wind in my hair
I was there
I was there
Down the stairs
I was there
I was there
Sacred prayer
I was there
I was there
It was rare you
remember it
Wind in my hair
I was there
I was there
Down the stairs
I was there
I was there
Sacred prayer
I was there
I was there
It was rare you
remember it
Wind in my hair
I was there
I was there
Down the stairs
I was there
I was there
Sacred prayer
I was there
I was there
It was rare
you remember it