Lately my thoughts
eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the
hate'll finally go away
if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Just like I wish they
would understand
me one time
I had a breakdown
and tatted my entire
body except one line
Everything's just fine
There I go, slippin'
again,
I'm actin' different again
I see my family's
reflection
Every time I look in
the cup and I sip it
again
After this ends
Tell me,
after all this ends
Will I be mentioned
again?
Why do I care?
If in the end,
it's just me and God,
like I'm Christian again
Before my dad
left this Earth
He made sure
I took on every
quality I didn't want
I was supposed
to die at birth
Gave me a chance
and I fucked it up,
give me another one
I've been runnin' from
Secrets I did as a
kid and I never
confronted 'em
I just called ma,
said I forgive her
For not bein' there
when I needed one
I'm comin' back,
just let me go
I'm comin' back,
just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back,
just let me go
I'm comin' back,
don't let me go
Who am I when
the music stops?
And the character
that I been playin'
Is really just broken
and f*ckin' lost?
I swear,
I've been tellin' you
Over and over again
in all of these songs
But they don't hear
nothin' I'm writin'
'Cause they're too
busy tryna write me off
And they go on
and on and on
It's funny, 'cause if
we just sat and talked
You'd see that
it's just hard for me
to be vulnerable
'Cause I blocked it off
I got trust
issues, growin' up
No one was there
to hear what I thought
My heart was broken
like my ribs as a kid
When me and
my father fought
I'm medicating with
something that
I cannot pronounce
But it's what
the doctor gave me
Rehab patient,
with a pen and
some paper
This psychiatrist
keeps evaluating
How can I live
with the fact
That my hand wasn't
on her stomach when
we lost the baby?
I don't got no
one to turn to
'Cause everyone's
dead in my life that
was tryna raise me
Searchin' for someone
to tell me who
I really am
I don't know when
I look in the mirror
Constantly
dreadin' the day
That the audience might
not be screaming
for me anymore
The feeling
of dying alone
And not leaving
anything behind
is my biggest fear
Kiss the person
that I love
As if I'm never
coming back after
I leave out the door
I'm comin' back,
just let me go
I'm comin' back,
just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back,
just let me go
I'm comin' back,
don't let me go
I'm comin' back,
just let me go
I'm comin' back,
just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back,
just let me go
I'm comin' back,
don't let me go