DEAR MATTHEW
I LIKE YOU A LOT
I REALIZE
YOU'RE IN A
RELATIONSHIP
WITH SOMEONE
RIGHT NOW
AND I RESPECT THAT
I WOULD LIKE YOU
TO KNOW
THAT IF YOU'RE
EVER SINGLE
IN THE FUTURE
AND YOU WANT TO
COME VISIT ME
IN CALIFORNIA
I COULD BE
OPEN TO SPENDING TIME
WITH YOU
AND FINDING OUT
HOW OLD YOU WERE
WHEN YOU WROTE
YOUR FIRST SONG
DEAR JONATHAN
I LIKED YOU TOO MUCH
I USED TO BE
ATTRACTED TO BOYS
WHO WOULD LIE TO ME
AND THINK SOLELY
ABOUT THEMSELVES
AND YOU WERE
PLENTY
SELF-DESTRUCTIVE
FOR MY TASTE
AT THE TIME
I USED TO SAY
THE MORE TRAGIC
THE BETTER
THE TRUTH IS
WHENEVER I THINK OF
THE EARLY NINETIES
YOUR FACE COMES UP
WITH A VENGEANCE
LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY
DEAR TERRANCE
I LOVE YOU MUCHLY
YOU'VE BEEN NOTHING
BUT OPEN-HEARTED
AND EMOTIONALLY
AVAILABLE
AND SUPPORTIVE AND
AND NURTURING
COMSUMMATELY
THERE FOR ME
I KEPT DRAWING YOU IN
AND PUSHING YOU AWAY
I REMEMBER
HOW BEAUTIFUL
IT WAS TO
FALL ASLEEP
ON YOUR COUCH
AND CRY IN FRONT
OF YOU
FOR THE FIRST TIME
YOU WERE THE
BEST PLATFORM
FROM WHICH TO JUMP
BEYOND MYSELF
WHAT WAS WRONG
WITH ME
DEAR MARCUS
YOU ROCKED MY WORLD
YOU HAD A CHARISMATIC
WAY ABOUT YA
WITH THE WOMEN
AND YOU GOT ME
SERIOUSLY THINKING
ABOUT SPIRITUALITY
AND YOU WOULDN'T
LET ME GET AWAY WITH
KICKING MY OWN ASS
BUT I COULD NEVER
REALLY FEEL RELAXED
AND LET THE FALL
AROUND YOU GO
AND THAT STOPPED US
FROM GOING ANY
FURTHER THAN WE DID
AND IT'S KIND OF
TOO BAD
CAUSE WE COULD'VE
HAD MUCH MORE FUN
DEAR LOU
WE LEARNED SO MUCH
I REALIZE
WE WON'T BE ABLE
TO TALK FOR SOME TIME
AND I UNDERSTAND
THAT AS I DO YOU
THE LONG DISTANCE
THING
WAS THE HARDEST
AND WE DID AS WELL AS
WE COULD
WE WERE TOGETHER
DURING A VERY
TUMULTUOUS TIME
IN OUR LIVES
I WILL ALWAYS
HAVE YOU BACK
AND BE CURIOUS
ABOUT YOU
ABOUT YOUR CAREER
YOUR WHEREABOUTS