I don't know what I was thinking
leaving my child behind
Now I suffer the curse
and now I am blind
With all this anger
guilt and sadness
coming to haunt me forever
I can't wait for the cliff
at the end of the river
Is this revenge I am seeking
Or seeking someone
to avenge me
Stuck in my own paradox
I wanna set myself free
Maybe I should
chase and find
before they'll try
to stop it
It won't be long before
I'll become a puppet
It's been so long
Since I last have
seen my son
Lost to this monster
To the man behind
the slaughter
Since you've been gone
I've been singing
this stupid song
So I could ponder
The sanity of your mother
I wish I lived in the present
with the gift of
my past mistakes
But the future keeps luring in
like a pack of snakes
Your sweet little eyes
your little smile
is all I remember
Those fuzzy memories
mess with my temper
Justification is killing me
but killing isn't justified
What happened to my son
I'm terrified
It lingers in my mind
and the thought keeps on
getting bigger
I'm sorry my sweet baby
I wish I've been there
It's been so long
Since I last have
seen my son
Lost to this monster
To the man behind
the slaughter
Since you've been gone
I've been singing
this stupid song
So I could ponder
The sanity of your mother