Today up on this hill
I'm counting
all the killers
They sway
as they swarm
A look of gluttons
in their eyes
They mutter
as the body loses warmth
They pick your bones
like locks inside a tomb
and take great care
to not take care of you
Here's an unexplainable one
Here's an unexplainable one
While I was
learning to live
We all were living a lie
I guess you got
what you wanted
So I will settle
for a slaughterhouse
soaked in blood and betrayal
It's always
somebody else
Somebody else was me
You want the real smile
or the one I used to practice
not to feel like a failure
I don't need you
to do it for me
I don't need you
to understand
I don't need you
to hide it from me
I just want to feel
like any other man
I won't show you
the whole story
I won't show you
the aftermath
I won't show you
my allegory
Don't look away
Here's an unexplainable one
Here's an unexplainable one
Here's an unexplainable one
Aah
I'm not ahead of my time
I just drew
the first breath
If I'm alive tomorrow
I will alleviate
the pressure
by cutting you out of me
I found my bottom line
dead on the front lines
I know I'll never go home
So set fire to your ships
and past regrets
and be free
I don't need you
to do it for me
I don't need you
to understand
I don't need you
to hide it from me
I just want to feel
like any other man
I won't show you
my whole story
I won't show you
the aftermath
I won't show you
my allegory
Don't look away
Here's an unexplainable one
What have you done
What have you done
Yeah
While I was
learning to live
You taught me
how to die
I guess I got
what I wanted
Another needle in the back
through purified scarification
It wasn't somebody else
You fucking did it to me
You want a real smile
I haven't smiled in years