Dear God, please
hear me out
I know it's been
a couple years
since I've reached
Out and said hello
I bet You're wondering
why I.. keep
obsessing on and
stressin' all
the little things
When I.. should be
living life and
soaking up the memories
I know I've been
selfish, I have no excuse
to give You, it's true
Hanging by
a thread's how I live
I don't know why
but I feel
more comfortable
Livin' in my agony
watchin' my self-esteem
go up in flames
acting like I don't
Care what
anyone else thinks
when I know truthfully
that that's the furthest
thing from how I
Feel but I'm too proud
to open up and ask ya
to pick me up and
pull me out this hole
I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help
but I just can't imagine
who I'd be if I was happy
Yeah been this way
so long it feels like
somethin's off when I'm
not depressed
I got some
Issues that I won't
address, I got some
baggage I ain't opened yet
I got some demons
I should put to rest
I got some
Traumas that I can't forget
I got some phone calls
I been avoidin'
some family members
I don't really connect with
Some things I said
I wish I woulda not let slip
some hurtful words that
never shoulda left my lips
Some bridges burned
I'm not ready to rebuild
yet some insecurities
I haven't dealt with, yes
I'll be the first to admit
that I'm a lonely soul
and the last to admit
I need a hand to hold
Losin' hope headed
down a dangerous road
strange I know but
I feel most at home
when I'm
Livin' in my agony
watchin' my self-esteem
go up in flames
acting like I don't
Care what
anyone else thinks
when I know truthfully
that that's the furthest
thing from how I
Feel but I'm too proud
to open up and ask ya
to pick me up and
pull me out this hole
I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help
but I just can't imagine
who I'd be if I was happy
Don't know what's
around the bend
Don't know what
my future is
but I can't keep on
livin' in
Livin' in my agony
watchin' my self-esteem
go up in flames
acting like I don't
Care what
anyone else thinks
when I know truthfully
that that's the furthest
thing from how I
Feel but I'm too proud
to open up and ask ya
to pick me up and
pull me out this hole
I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help
but I just can't imagine
who I'd be if I was happy
I was happy
I was happy