Feels like it's rained
in my head
for a hundred days
Stare in the mirror
and I look
for another face
And I get so tired
of putting out fires
and making up lies
Checking my eyes
for some kinda light
but nothing's inside
And it feels
like it's rained
in my head
for a hundred days
And I say I hate you
when I don't
Push you when
you get too close
It's hard to laugh
when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can
save me from
my lack of self-control
Sometimes bad things
take the place
where good things go
I've asked
for forgiveness
a hundred times
Believed it myself
when I halfway apologized
And it's not unfair
I'm asking for prayers
but nobody cares
Going nowhere
like falling down stairs
while everyone stares
No one's there
when I've asked
for forgiveness
a hundred times
And I say I hate you
when I don't
Push you when
you get too close
It's hard to laugh
when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can
save me from
my lack of self-control
Sometimes bad things
take the place
where good things go
No I'm just
takin' a shot
Ah maybe I'm
just too eager
Oh maybe I
lost the plot
Ha I used to
pity some people
I said they were
missing a spine
Yeah maybe
the problem is ego
Maybe the
maybe the problem is mine
Really I'm fine
Don't get too intimate
don't get too curious
This is just feeling
like it's not that serious
Stare at the ceiling
feeling delirious
Fuck all your empathy
I want your fury
'cause I will just
tell you I'm better then
better then
Spit out my medicine
medicine ay
Drunk on adrenaline
adrenaline ay
And I don't know why I
Say I hate you
when I don't
Push you when you
get too close
It's hard to laugh
when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can
save me
from my lack of self-control
And I won't make
excuses for the pain
I caused us both
So thank you for
always standing by me
even though
Sometimes bad things
take the place
where good things go