Well I've found
in my search for clarity
That nothing I've lost
belongs to me
I'll never take the fall
or crawl on my knees
For this dread I won't let
consume my dreams
Will we ever find
the art in the atrophy
Shame painted on the walls
etched in the stone
Cold face of me dying alone
There is nothing
worth the wait
For peace
I'm always counting
every second I don't break
Do you even care
I'm split in my head
I'm torn between
the things I know
and the ways I cope
I'm sinking again
With the thought
you need to grow
but you know you won't
In and out
playing tricks
on my shadow self
You said that
I can't be a quitter
Spilling lies
under the guise of
getting better
Yeah I'm getting better
never better balanced
I'm starting to crack images
Nailed to the cross and eulogies
For the fallen hope that withers
every second I believe
Come to find
that some things
are exactly as they seem
I'm split in my head
I'm torn between
the things I know
and the ways I cope
I'm sinking again
with the thought
you need to grow
but you know you won't
It's hard to see compassion
through the red
Bitter hate has
taken center stage again
But I'm not done fighting
with the world I'm in
Are you sick of it yet
All this pity