I have to block out thoughts
Of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach
Leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape
To remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head
That make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride
A nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want
For you will you never call again
And will you never say that you
Love me just to put in my face
And will you never try to reach me
It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see
What's good for you
I'm sober now
For three whole months
lt's one accomplishment
That you helped me with
The one thing that always
Tore us apart
Is the one thing
I won't touch again
In my sick way
I want to thank you
For holding my head up
Late at night
While I was busy
Waging wars on myself
You were trying
To stop the fight
You never doubted
My warped opinions
On things like
Suicidal hate
You made me
Compliment myself
When it was
Way too hard to take
So I'll drive
So ****ing far away
That I never
Cross your mind
And do whatever it takes
In your heart
To leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see
What's good for you
And with a sad heart
I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street
For every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy
I never was a man
Until I saw
Your blue eyes cry
And I held your face
In my hand
And then I fell down yelling
Make it go away
Just make a smile come back
And shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered
How can you do this to me
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see
What's good for yo