I never meant
to make it
such a mess
I never thought
that it would
go this far
So I just stand here
sorry
Searching for
something to say
Something to say
Words fail
words fail
There's nothing
I can say
I guess I thought
I could be part of this
I never had
this kind of thing before
I never had that
perfect girl
Who somehow
could see the good
part of me
I never had the dad
who stuck it out
No corny jokes
or baseball gloves
No mom who
just was there
'Cause mom was all
that she had to be
That's not a worthy
explanation
I know
there is none
Nothing can make
sense of all these
things I've done
Words fail
words fail
There's nothing
I can say
Except sometimes
you see everything
you wanted
And sometimes
you see everything
you wish you had
And it's right there
right there
right there
In front of you
And you want
to believe
it's true
So you
make it true
And you think
maybe
everybody wants it
And needs it
a little bit
too
This was just
a sad invention
It wasn't real
I know
But we were happy
I guess I couldn't
let that go
I guess I couldn't
give that up
I guess I wanted
to believe
'Cause if I
just believe
Then I don't have to see
what's really there
No I'd rather pretend
I'm something better
than these broken parts
Pretend I'm
something other than
this mess that I am
'Cause then I don't have
to look at it
And no one gets
to look at it
No
no one can really see
'Cause I've learned
to slam
on the brake
Before I even
turn the key
Before I make
the mistake
Before I lead
with the worst of me
I never let them see
the worst of me
'Cause what if
everyone saw
What if everyone knew
Would they like
what they saw
Or would they
hate it too
Will I just
keep on running away
from what's true
All I ever do is run
So how do I step in
Step into the sun
Step into the sun