Somebody save me
me from myself
I've spent so
long living in hell
Another pill as I
start to spiral message
to my daughters
I don't even deserve
the father title
Hailie I'm so sorry
I know I wasn't there
for your first guitar recital
Didn't walk you down
the aisle missed the
birth of your first child
Your first podcast
looking down sweetie
I'm so proud of
how you turned out
Sorry that I chose drugs
and put em above you
sorry that I didn't love
you enough to give em
up how the fuck do
I not love you more
than a pill looking up
to the ceiling from
this floor wonder will
Somebody save me
me from myself
I've spent so long
living in hell
They say my lifestyle
is bad for my health
it's the only thing
that seems to help
Alaina sorry that you
had to hear me
fall in the bathroom
Sorry that I missed your
gradu wait Nate I should
just congratulate you on
being a Dad to Carter
and Liam look at you
Little bro sorry I left
you sorry that I'll
never get to
Hold or hug my
little nephews
Stevie I'm sorry
I missed you
Grow up and I didn't
get to be the Dad
I wanted to be to you
Things I wanted to
see you do
this is my song
from me to you
Sorry I gave up but
I'm just so defeated
God what the fuck
do you want me to do
Somebody save me
me from myself
I've spent so
long living in hell
They say my lifestyle
is bad for my health
it's the only thing
that seems to help
I've been staring at
that video of Hailie
almost daily of her
playing a guitar
in hopes maybe
That'll give me
the power to fight but
the addict in me's a
coward he told me
that I can't do it
Had a second chance
blew it it's like
I'm stuck inside
an alternate
reality but I know
I'll turn it around and
be able to walk her and
Lainie one day to the altar
as proud as can be
Right now
I'm just weak
as I fall further down this
deep hole and farther in
the ground that I sink as
they lower me in my
coffin I feel the tears all
falling down on my cheek
I'm a lost cause
baby don't waste
your time on me
I'm so damaged
beyond repair
life has shattered my
hopes and my dreams
I'm a lost cause
baby don't waste
your time on me
I'm so damaged
beyond repair
life has shattered my
hopes and my dreams