I can't make you
pray for me now
Don't need your
sympathy I
Just want the love
that I deserve
When all I do
is hurt myself
And I've been tryna hide
But I know it's just a matter
of time until I break down
All the stress that I hold
too much weight now
Got the pills I don't
really wanna take
But it feels like I walk
in the devil's playground
Rain clouds in
the head too often
Brain dead in the
bed that's a coffin
Havin' thoughts of
the head blown off
Every time that I
close my eyes no stop it
And I don't think that anyone get it
So I don't wanna tell anybody
what's really going on in my head
Just wanna bе alone and
listen to the music
And lеt it tell me
the way I need to feel
So I don't think I'm defective
It's getting worse every
day that'll pass
Getting too high I just
wait for the crash
Started when I met my dad
and then he left again
Abandonment the only thing I expect
And can't dream when I'm in a nightmare
Everything goes wrong what do I care
Tryna grab happiness
'cause it's right there
But it slips through the grip
and it's gone in an instant
A misfit insisting on
always tryna fit in
Got a need for the love but
for me I don't give shit
Enemies wanna see me fall
And I feel like I'm at the
last resort about to give in
Churches start to feel
like prison cells
'Cause everybody'd rather
judge than help
I can't make you
pray for me now
Don't need your
sympathy I
Just want the love
that I deserve
When all I do
is hurt myself
Just tell me I'm okay
Tell me this is life and it'll
all work out in the long run
If it's not true lie to me
'Cause I need some hope to help
me out when the heart's shut
Detached I barely feel alive
Tell me this is all
worth the pain and time
I been slippin' now
barely got the grip
Where was all the friends who
said they would stick by me
Look into my eyes see
Right into the soul
weighed down so heavy
But I'm highly emotional
but never vulnerable
The bandwidth too much
'Bout to overload or
overdose and no one close
And I got something
inside
I really hate and wanna
cut and let it bleed out
Hard to let in the light
when there's a critic inside
That won't stop
speaking
up bringing me down
I'm feeling like I'm in a battle with
two different people inside of me
The one who's been trying
to hold me together
Is not the one who's
in the driver's seat
I got this need to escape to the point
where I'm sick of my fuckin' sobriety
Losing my footing
And I wish somebody would tell me
that I'll be okay if I try to be
Churches start to feel
like prison cells
'Cause everybody'd rather
judge than help
I can't make you
pray for me now
Don't need your
sympathy I
Just want the love
that I deserve
When all I do
is hurt myself
Pray for me now
Don't need your sympathy I
Just want the love
that I deserve
When all I do
is hurt myself