When I close my eyes
and I try to sleep
the weight of the world
falls down on me
It's all a part
of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
Sick inside of bed
infected with the feelings
staring up like my dreams
were projected on the ceiling
I can see it
I want the money
and the fame too
they told me when you get it
never let it change you
and finally I've morphed
into everything I tried to be
the fucking irony as everybody's
got their eye on me
Society
quickly became my rivalry
driving me off the deep end
then doubt starts to creep in
fairweather they're never there
do I need friends we eating
but will they stick around
when the feast ends
You say you love me
when it's glitter and gold
but when it's bitter and cold
would you deliver my soul
or just cut me out
the picture and roll
love is pain
and it's taking its toll
feel like I've wasted
my whole life
always working
searching for some shit
tryna live a life that's perfect
but perfect don't exist
When I close my eyes
and I try to sleep
the weight of the world
falls down on me
It's all a part of my
nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
Spent my whole life
chasing after dreams
but every dream
turns out to be
just a part of my
nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
Help me no I can't
help myself
help me to believe
that I'm somebody else
not some fucking
addict who can't dream
'cause his habits
are chopped up on a table
'til he screams let me have it
fuck it
What's a life anyway huh
you hear about that kid
who died again today huh
I'd pull my fucking guts out
just to make you understand
that I've become a ghost
I am a ghost I'm not a man
why can't I fucking say it
they'd say that I'm insane
but in a song they'd play it
'cause they understand the pain
what the fuck is going on
who am I
life is just so fucking long
I wanna
forgive me don't forget me
believe you can protect me
it's just a song I'm venting with
the verse that's never-ending
And I have finally lost
the world has finally won
dear God
did you forget your son
When I close my eyes
and I try to sleep
the weight of the world
falls down on me
It's all a part of my
nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
Spent my whole life
chasing after dreams
but every dream
turns out to be
just a part of my
nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
part of my nightmare
Can't find a reason why
don't know why I even try
I pray when I sleep at night
so at least I'll die a decent guy
when I look in the mirror and say hi
I can't look me in the eye
we're both ashamed of the guy
on the other side
can't find my peace and quiet
some things are better left in silence
it's me who needs some guidance
or maybe what I need is violence
when I'm having a meltdown
can't ask for help now
got so much self-doubt
that I weird myself out
can you help out
so many selfish phobias
like self-inflicted loneliness
sometimes I get so low in this
empty search for holiness
can't seem to find a reason why
I don't know why I even try
these demons they won't let me sleep
at night they're killing my dreams
they need me to die but fuck it
I got nothing left to say
we're all gonna die
anyway
shit could happen to me any day
I just spit thirty-two
and didn't say a damn thing