I'm caught up
in the everyday trend
tied up by invisible thread
walking down a razor thin
edge and I wake up tired
think I'm better off dead
Been a few months
since I crossed over
state lines, talk to my
mom, fake smiles
over FaceTime
Drink all night till I can't
walk in a straight line
feel so low but I'm high
at the same time
I can't keep my feet
on the ground
And I'm nervous what
you'll think of me now
I'm hoping that someone
comes around and
helps me figure it out
I think that I should
try to kill my ego
'cause if I don't
my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up
but somehow lately
I'm acting
like a f**king baby
I'm really not as happy
as I seem
Still a little kid
that can't make friends
wanna be invited
but I won't attend
I've been
having bad dreams
my career could end
'cause I slip up
when I should've
played pretend
Turned eighteen
and I left the city
said "I wanna be cool
I don't wanna be pretty"
The voices
all came crashing down
and said "You're too nice
to run this town"
I can't keep my feet
on the ground
And I'm nervous what
you'll think of me now
I'm hoping that someone
comes around and
helps me figure it out
I think that I should
try to kill my ego
'cause if I don't
my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up
but somehow lately
I'm acting
like a f**king baby
I'm really not as happy
as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah nothing's
as it seems
And I'm all grown up
but somehow lately
I'm acting
like a f**king baby
I'm really not
that happy being me
I don't like the lie
I'm living, I'm way too
nice and too forgiving
I wanna go back
to the beginning
when it all felt right
A rooftop, Lower
East Side, I'm singing
didn't give a f**k
if I was winning
It's all done now
who am I kidding?
I'm doing way worse
than I'm admitting
I think that I should
try to kill my ego
'cause if I don't
my ego might kill me
I'm all grown up
but somehow lately
I'm acting
like a f**king baby
I'm really not as happy
as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah nothing's
as it seems
And I'm all grown up
but somehow lately
I'm acting
like a f**king baby
I'm really not
that happy being me