Dear God please
Hear me out
I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached
out and said hello
I bet you're wonderin'
Why I keep
obsessing on and
stressin' all the little things
When I should be
livin' life and
soaking up the memories
I know I've been
selfish I have
No excuse to
give you it's true
Hanging by a
thread's how I live
I don't know why
But I feel more comfortable
Livin' in my agony
Watchin' my self-esteem
go up in flames
Acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
that that's the furthest thing
from how I
Feel but I'm too
proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me
out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help
But I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
Yeah been this way so long
It feels like something's off
when I'm not depressed
I got some issues that
I won't address
I got some baggage
I ain't opened yet
I got some demons
I should put to rest
I got some traumas
that I can't forget
I got some phone calls
I been avoiding
Some family members
I don't really connect with
Some things I said
I wish I would of not let slip
Some hurtful words
that never should of left my lips
Some bridges burned
I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities
I haven't dealt with yes
I'll be the first to admit
that I'm a lonely soul
And the last to admit
I need a hand to hold
Losin' hope headed down a
dangerous road
Strange I know but I feel
most at home when I'm
Livin' in my agony
Watchin' my self-esteem
go up in flames
Acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
that that's the furthest thing
from how I
Feel but I'm too
proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me
out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help
But I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
Don't know what's
around the bend
Don't know what my future is
But I can't keep on livin' in
Livin' in my agony
Watchin' my self-esteem
go up in flames
Acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
that that's the furthest thing
from how I
Feel but I'm too
proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me
out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help
But I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
If I was happy
If I was happy