I'm caught up in the
everyday trend
Tied up by invisible thread
Walkin' down a
razor-thin edge
And I wake up tired
Think I'm better off dead
Been a few months since
I crossed over state lines
Talk to my mom
Fake smiles over FaceTime
Drink all night
'Til I can't walk a straight line
Feel so low
But I'm high at the same time
I can't keep my
feet on the ground
And I'm nervous what you'll
think of me now
I'm hopin' that someone
comes around
And helps me figure it out
I think that I should
try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't my
ego might kill me
I'm all grown up
But somehow lately
I'm actin' like a f**kin' baby
I'm really not as
happy as I seem
Still a little kid that
can't make friends
Wanna be invited
But I won't attend
I been havin' bad dreams
My career could end
Because I slip up when
I should've played pretend
Turned eighteen
And I left the city
I said I wanna be cool
I don't wanna be pretty
Voices all came
crashin' down
And said you're too nice to
run this town
I can't keep my
feet on the ground
And I'm nervous what you'll
think of me now
I'm hopin' that someone
comes around
And helps me figure it out
I think that I should
try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't my
ego might kill me
I'm all grown up
But somehow lately
I'm actin' like a f**kin' baby
I'm really not as
happy as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah nothing's as it seems
And I'm all grown up
But somehow lately
I'm actin' like a f**kin' baby
I'm really not that
happy bein' me
I don't like the lie I'm livin'
I'm way too nice and
too forgivin'
I wanna go back to
the beginning
When it all felt right
A rooftop Lower East Side
I'm singin'
Didn't give a f**k if
I was winnin'
It's all done now
So who am I kidding
I'm doin' way worse than
I'm admitting
I think that I should
try to kill my ego
'Cause if I don't my
ego might kill me
I'm all grown up
But somehow lately
I'm actin' like a f**kin' baby
I'm really not as
happy as I seem
Nothing's as it seems
Yeah nothing's as it seems
And I'm all grown up
But somehow lately
I'm acting like a f**kin' baby
I'm really not that
happy bein' me