Growing up
I never had a lot of money
I never had a phone
always was a little hungry
Used to find it hard
to sleep when I could
hear my mother sobbing
I was ten back then
I didn't have a room
had to buy used shoes
I hid behind tunes
to avoid abuse
And every time I fell
I would blame it
on myself
even if it was an accident
Maybe it's not
what I want
oh I've seen better days
and the moment
f**king sucks
But I'll be damned
if I don't stop
and honestly why not?
When nobody
gives a f**k?
But sometimes
I just can't help myself
I wanna give up trying
and start doing
something else
Sometimes I just
get overwhelmed
I know it's in my mind
but I think
I need some help
Sometimes I just
can't help myself
I was an outcast
thrown out to dry
and get laughed at
Too shy
to talk about home
I always thought life
was supposed to be cold
and oh I've been
so lost without hope
I got a window
in my head, it's a casket
you know
I've been wishing
I was dead, but I mask it
Maybe it's not
what I want
oh I've seen better days
and the moment
f**king sucks
But I'll be damned
if I don't stop
and honestly why not?
When nobody
gives a f**k?
But sometimes
I just can't help myself
I wanna give up trying
and start doing
something else
Sometimes I just
get overwhelmed
I know it's in my mind
but I think
I need some help
Because it's all I know
my hands
around my throat
pray that I won't let go
this time around
But every single time
I try to shut my eyes
I see the reason
why I'm not alone
sometimes I just can't
But sometimes
I just can't help myself
I wanna give up trying
and start doing
something else
Sometimes I just
get overwhelmed
I know it's in my mind
but I think
I need some help
Sometimes I just
can't help myself