I'll seek you out
slay you alive
one more word
and you won't survive
I didn't leave a letter
on my desk
saying "Goodbye"
People think I left
even though I'm still here
Pressure made its way
through my chest
to my heart
like a spark does
fireworks
on the new year
Burning me alive
life imitates art
there are flames
on my arms
tattooed right here
Bury me alive
disappear underground
where they found me
before I ever had
this career, mmm
I'll seek you out
slay you alive
one more word
and you won't survive
And I'm not scared
of your stolen power
I see right through you
in the eye
I'm staring at a diamond
knowing that
they are forever
even if my body isn't
still around to wear 'em
Seats are only full
at funerals and
not the weddings
only vows I made
the other person
couldn't share 'em
Know that I'm a monster
like the one
under the bedding
afraid of having kids
I'm scared I'll be
just like my parents
These were my decisions
now this cross
I gotta wear it
self-inflicting these
incisions here I can
no longer bear it, uh
I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
Look I'm sick of sitting
inside of this room
'cause every thought
I got's negative
I'm sick of not being
able to sleep and relying
only on a sedative
I'm sick of hearing another
voice
telling me what to
do in my head again
Psychiatrist said
he's imaginary but I know
he's real if I said he is
Fighting with myself
so I can't help that
I'm competitive
this movie is my life
but I still
remain uncredited
I don't care how big I get
I still remain unedited
I built this from
the ground up
y'all just living it
Long hair don't care
I'm not trimming it
f**k vanity caught up
in an image made
by the internet
my insanity's imminent
All sharks
I'm swimming with
what's hell I've been in it
my happiness is bankrupt
but my credit card's
unlimited
I'll seek you out
find you just to remind you
that when you're born
an anomaly nowadays
it's probably gonna be
harder to find you
Don't leave the past
behind you don't forget all
of the fans who ride
go back and open up
the catalog to my first
songs that rewind you
Remember the things that
drive you, remember the
feeling of being alone in
a home as a kid every
night with the struggle of
having nobody to cry to
Growing up and having
trust issues now
everyone I say bye to
Looking up at the sky
I found a destination
to fly to
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh