I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing
that's real
The needle
tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
but I remember
everything
What have I become,
my sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
goes away
in the end
And you could
have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this
crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains
of time the
feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become,
my sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
goes away
in the end
And you could
have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way





