There is something holding me
Something I don't wanna see
like a dream
I've never been
in the same reality
I need a meaning
and it's all that I've been pleading
I wanna drown
but I'm holding on
I keep on the setting
When you're flipping
I'm shutting off inside
Put me to beginning
Every time it's like a
promise of a lie
But I still desire you
Gonna burn my hands in fire
But I'm so in love with my pain
Don't make it go away
Maybe I've been traumatized
and blinded by the pain I hide
Crushing all too tight
inside my heart
it's like I'm pressurized
My head's too crowded
Lost in a fantasy
Nothing can really
make sense to me
I'm traumatized and misaligned
waiting for a sign
My hand is out for the lifeline
Don't see you regretting
Keep on spitting on my face
and I still smile
And I won't be leaving
'cause I'm happy with the pain
I keep inside
Broken inside or
a fucking star in a self-satire
But I'm so alive with my pain
the only thing that's here to stay
The one thing
that never goes away
Maybe I've been traumatized
and blinded by the pain I hide
Crushing all too tight
inside my heart
it's like I'm pressurized
My head's too crowded
Lost in a fantasy
Nothing can really
make sense to me
I'm traumatized and misaligned
waiting for a sign
My hand is out for the lifeline
I need a certain guideline
before I'm fucking up my whole life
Yeah
My hands are holding all I've got
Can't hold it
I'm breaking up
And now it's like I'm
giving up
Maybe I've been traumatized
and blinded by the pain I hide
Crushing all too tight
inside my heart
it's like I'm pressurized
My head's too crowded
Lost in a fantasy
Nothing can really
make sense to me
I'm traumatized and misaligned
waiting for a sign
My hand is out for the lifeline