How long
have I got
in the hot light
'til the shine rusts
I've been
thinkin' through the hard stuff
Over light drugs like
every night
No you don't need
to come over
'Cause I'd crowd please
And I'm tired
Slowly
Morphed into a poser
Barely know her anymore
Do I look high-functionin' or
is my façade crumblin'
Oh God don't actually
answer me Caroline
But oh well
Look at my life
Bet you can't tell
But it's kind of a bad time
A new spiral
every night
Bawlin' my eyes out
No but I'm so fine
Yeah I might just
shut up and drive
Hope I don't crash and
blow out the headlights
My nightmare actualized
Got what I wanted
It doesn't sit right
I just got
to the party
With the big shots
and the Barbies
Empty
Talk and talk and talk
until my ears bleed
He's holdin' a pill
He thinks that
I should take one
But I'll raise him
to the whole bunch
I'm kidding
God he thinks I'm stupid
What a gut punch
But then we go
Downtown
there's no medicine
I'd spit out
if it promises
Slowin' down
Voices
Don't want to hear a sound
But oh well
Look at my life
Bet you can't tell
But it's kind of a bad time
A new spiral
every night
Bawlin' my eyes out
No but I'm so fine
Yeah I might just
shut up and drive
Hope I don't crash and
blow out the headlights
My nightmare actualized
Got what I
What I
Maybe if I smile enough
I'll get away with givin' up
I'll move across the country
just to judge myself
Like just as much as
I do when I'm sittin' here
I miss my friends
I disappeared
And haven't seen 'em
in a year
Oh God
What am I doin' here
But oh well
Look at my life
Bet you can't tell
But it's kind of a bad time
A new spiral
every night
Bawlin' my eyes out
No but I'm so fine
Yeah I might just
shut up and drive
Hope I don't crash and
blow out the headlights
My nightmare actualized
Got what I wanted
It doesn't sit right
Oo oo oo oo oo
I got what I wanted
It doesn't sit right
Oo oo oo oo oo
I got what I wanted
It doesn't sit right